Freedom

• The sex is THE most thing we are thinking about the whole day with sex i mean is unaware sexual attraction and thinking around the whole concept .
• But I think its still sub-part of the EGO heading we are indulging into. The mixture of Ego + Unawareness creates this cobweb of desperation for attraction and if your testosterone level are high u'll feel far more compulsive than the average days .

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• The attraction towards beauty is the natural thing and the freshness in it is not explainable . But I'm not talking here about those , there is a faint distinction between unaware felling and aware feeling . In awareness U'll feel a Little freshness in the air . In unawareness u'll continues indulge into the same for the sake of unable to sense the present .

We all are either very busy in future or very deeply sink into our own past . Its hard to distinct where we are , when we are into that . We think that this is my thought and we go out of our way to defend it or try to prove it but unaware that someone had put that thought into our head .

• If your life is continuous flow , flux . U'll feel something more . Something coming from distant world . Something from outside universe . You are in sync with the universe . 
• But there is more to it . I have experience things many times , specially at night when I'm completely alone , very relaxed , in complete joy ->  viewing sky , feeling each and every sound coming , blowing winds and breathing lungs . But after that comes  something special something alien  , full of awareness and yet completely empty. Everything just stops , or flows like fluid , but still stays the same  . I do't know but thoughts generally disappears , not disappear but you become forgetful about the thoughts  , the scene become some stopped vision , yet continuous flare ,  with nothing to ask or said for . The energy level goes from max to maximize.

• Some says this experience might be mind-less-ness  , some give it Alertness name .  The experience happens many times . I have heard Osho talking about the same calling it what Budhha / Gorakhnath called it satori . But I'm not sure This might be  some tricks played by mind , or false perception or hypnotizing yourself . But there nobody remains and clarity touches the peak . I never ever felt the same way as I do in those moments but i forget myself there . In dreams u are there a t the end . U get to know about the thing happened at the end but there only small , deep perfume of those moments persists . That point I'm at peak  of alertness , what i have experience. There persists a continuous moment .

• These days I'm little dull and felling tied and those moments are nearly gone . Those generally happened during my sabbatical days when I'm taking care of everything eating , sleeping , talking . I talk too much but those days , I just sit . I generally can't stop myself talking / giving my opinion but those days i just smile and let my opinion faze .

I call this thing freedom , I'll do more experimentation , few i have done but think this is the moment everybody generally talk about . Or this might be some mind tricks .

I'm not sure but I call that FREEDOM . We are living for the FREEDOM to live the life at peak-ness. Dullness is not our nature . Lets be dancing like trees . Flow like water in lakes does . Roar like a  lion .

 My English may not be very correct but who cares the language is just a way for expression . Your minds are just an interpreters of the language , please tweak your minds a little to understand my Foolishness .

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